Happy Happy Third Birthday to my precious, baby of my babies. I cannot believe that three years ago today you were finally born.
After your big brothers were born, your daddy and I thought we were all finished having babies in this family. God had a different plan than ours and we soon found out that you were growing in my tummy.
Knox, I want to be you when I grow up. From the time you started growing in my tummy, you have been the spunkiest and most energetic little boy. You made mommy sick ALL the time. You grew so big in my tummy that your made mommy huge! When it was time for you to be born, you still weren’t ready. I guess you enjoyed swimming around and eating all the bacon and cupcakes I was feeding you. When you finally made your appearance in this world, a day late, the first thing you did out of my tummy was pee all over everybody!
Knox, I love that you don’t have a care in the world. Nothing brings you down. You do everything with joy. The love in your heart shines so big for everyone to see and feel. To be such a little boy, you have so much confidence. With your carefree attitude, I know you will do big things in this world. You will not be held back by the fear of others, or the desire to please anyone. Your laughter is contagious. People love to be around you. At three, it seems like you already know WHO you are and know your place in this world. You take what life gives you and you embrace it for everything that it is. You never doubt you are loved.
Knox, I want to be like that. I want to be carefree, not jaded by the patterns of this corrupted world. I want to find joy in everything whether it’s doing the dishes or pushing you on the swings. I want to let my light shine out, regardless of circumstances. I want to never fear what others may say or do.
Knox, we knew when we were pregnant with you that God was going to use you to teach us so much. I had no idea how much we needed you in this family. You were the one that God really used to drive home his plan of forcing me to let go of control.
Child, when I look at you, I turn to a pile of goo. Still. Looking at your sweet face, ocean blue eyes, long lashes, and wavy blonde locks, I still feel the way I felt the first time I saw you. I was instantly smitten. You will forever be my baby of babies. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for being how I hope to be one day.